Feeling All 8th Grade & Shit...

Fake money, real plastic
Stupid cupid, fantastic
Queer thinking, straight talking
What you see ain't what you are getting
Fast loving, slow moving
No rhythm, but I'm grooving
Old feeling, new beginning
Superficial expectations

Let's Go Steelers!

I hate The Packers and I never want to see them win another Super Bowl in my lifetime.

It's Complicated...And I Don't Like You

I really don't get the point in facebook relationship statuses, but since I changed my status from "single" to "complicated" there has been a big...HUGE improvement in how people talk to me. 

I barely talk to anyone on facebook. I usually post majority of my blog posts as statuses, and check photos of far away cousins. The only time I'm ever really on facebook is when I'm writing on this blog or when I open a new tab and forget to logout. And I hate when I forget to log out because for some reason I get these...people, who like to fb chat about the dumbest shit.

Topics: I had a crush on you in high school, you look good, do you have a boyfriend, why you still single, you know I love  you right?, I'm sorry for that time when we argued over that thing. 

Whatever, dumbshit!

So I changed my relationship status to see if things would change, and they have. However, there is this one fellow who just doesn't get the hint. Where most have gone on to bug someone else, he still lingers in a quest to annoy the hell out of me.

Once upon a time we used to talk. Then instead of being with me he began a 2 year relationship with a good friend of mine (JOY!!!). Since they have broken up, he sends me messages, and pokes me (who still pokes people?) everyday. It's pretty annoying.

I changed my relationship status to  maybe let this dude know that my life has gone on, but nope! Instead of backing off he sends me a message asking me who am I dating? Then he sends another one telling me that if he were my man then our relationship would be "complicated" at all.

I have yet to respond to any of these messages. I don't think it's healthy to respond to stalkers. However, I do find it funny that I'm receiving the attention I want from someone I don't want it from and nothing from the people that I do like and want to talk to. UGH! That is truly the only complicated shit in my life at the moment.

pic snatched from the frisky

Earworm Alert!!!

Too much going on right now. I have to get my thoughts together before I post anything, but I've been playing this a lot lately:

Mission: New Years 2010 Plans!

None at the moment, but I can tell you that I would like to be completely and undeniably happy.

In the past years, I have done nothing, cried, crashed my car into a pile of snow, and done nothing all over again. I really would like to have fun. However, fun for me is not showing up to a club with a bunch of other randomly drunk people, but spending it with a bunch of friends with a nice bottle of champagne. 

At the moment the group of friends I have is about 4 deep. I don't mind that (especially since I don't like a lot of people), but they all have other plans that involve that someone special. I refuse to be the single person AGAIN! 

For some reason, whenever New Years comes around I'm always the single friend. Gross! I don't want to do that again. Hell I'm almost 30 (I'm 23) and I think I'm getting a little bit to old for that shit. 

So my mission for New Years is to get that cutie Howard to be my New Years date! If his lips aren't touching mine at the end of 2010 then I just know the following year is going to be shit.

So far, things have gone smooth. Yesterday we ate lunch together, we learned about each other, exchanged phone numbers, and I woke up (from a long and crazy night) with a text from him. 

He's a sweet guy really. I feel completely comfortable around him. And he makes me laugh. 

*sigh*

I have 16 days to make it happen. Time to do work!

Oh So That's How It Works!

I have come to the realization that in order to get a guy to act right, you must move on to the next one. LOL! and all this time I thought being myself was supposed to be affective. BOY WAS I WRONG!

I recently struck up a friendship with a guy that just so happens to be beautiful!  I drool in his presence. 

I haven't done anything yet, but it is nice to be on friendly terms with someone I believe to be one of the most beautiful people I have ever met. 

He (let's call him Howard) works with me, so I haven't tried to do anything yet. I have, however, tried to wiggly my way into every possible situation I could that involves just Howard and I working alone together. So far it's working, but I feel competition...another co-worker (let's call her Dottie).

Dottie clearly knows I like this situation. I can't be mad at anyone for knowing since I'm a bubbly-giggling mess when I'm a round Howard. Dottie and her boss were the ones who told me that I would be the one working hands on with the newbie Howard (when it comes to learning about certain elements of his job), then all of a sudden Dottie feels a need to constantly steal Howard away from me at key moments of my demonstration/flirting for the dumbest reasons. Like cleaning up his work space because she doesn't want to stay late. What?

Dottie is about our age (22-25), short like me, with long hair, but no shape. I on the other hand...well I'm the most beautiful girl in the world (and I challenge anyone else to say it isn't so). However, I know he isn't going to choose based on looks but personality (if he's the kind of guy I think he is)...and no one laughs as much as we. 

Which leads me Moss. A former flame, who told me to have fun with my cats because I wouldn't kiss his ass and drool over him like I do Howard. I liked Moss a lot. He was someone in a totally different league than me so when he revealed that he was interested I was pleased. We were kinda together for three weeks until I didn't call him back after I said I would. I don't know what happened but dude totally snapped at me. I had no idea a phone call was so important that it would result in him letting me know that I was going to die alone and miserable. Wow dude really? Okay...

So one day, Howard and I are in the middle of our flirting session when Moss walks by. Not only did Moss walk-by, but he stared so long at the two of us having a good time that I thought his glare might burn a hole into Howard's head. 

Later that night, I get two text messages from Moss asking me how I was and if I wanted to meet up one day for a date. I had no choice but to say no...I wouldn't want to disappoint my cats. 

I'm amused. I had no idea that it took so little to get the reaction you wanted out of someone you once thought was so big. Wow! I finally get it! I see the light!

However, when it comes to Howard, I have decided to take things slow. I like him so much, as a person, that if this thing I'm trying to start doesn't work out I know we will be friends. 

I don't know what's going to happen, but so far I'm having fun.